Wednesday, September 30, 2009

what the hell...

it really feels so fucked up! Having to hear all my friends going out for raya, they even plan it without telling me early! What the hell! I also want to go and have fun. Now getting to know my sweetheart is going out raya with here sec school mates really break my heart. If i tell her not to go i'll be a very selfish guy by not leeting other have fun due to i dont get what i want. I'm not an asshole who do that but its kind of hurt my feeling.

I wanted to go with them so badly! I really want but time do not allow me to. Working on all those day then planed the outing really feel so shitty. What could i do? The only thing now is that i'm letting go how i feel on this blog where i hardly update nor look at it. Wondering what to do now is really not helping my mind. I really hates this years raya due to this fucking ns. I dont get the taste of my freedom like i use to. What the fuck sia.

I justt dont want to be selfish nor a heartless person, i just want everyone include me to be happy. But its not going the way i want. haix....living with shitty life.

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